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Sex Education that’s the wrong education

Now please don't get the title wrong, I strongly believe in sex education to make sure that those that will be having sex later in life know everything that's going to be going on, and are completely safe from what they're doing in the first place. However there is always a right way to teach, and a wrong way (http://www.fresnobee.com/2011/05/12/2386629/parents-criticize-clovis-sex-ed.html), and one of the wrong ways to do that is not only to use out dated information, but also at the same time, to let a member of the church (any church), especially one that was at the top of the echelon, write something up that shouldn't be used at all in the first place.

 

Now mind you I'm very strong person when it comes to the separation of church and state and that includes the schools as well, though people may disagree with me on that and that's their right in the first place. However when we happen to be getting taught information that's not only outdated, but would be compared to a scare tactic, then it's something that should be seriously looked over period. However this person is stating that his information is not only accurate, but up to date as well. Well if that was the case, then how come three other schools have given up using this "Teen Choices" program at all, to me that means that not only does it not work, it shouldn't be used at all.

 

Personally I believe that there should only be two sources for teaching about any kind of sex education, and all in a safe way and environment, both by the schools as well as by the parents. However in today's world (and this also comes from experience from back when I was in school as well), the parents will more often then not lobe off teaching kids sex education to the school, which won't inform them on everything, and that's where the parents need to come in on that. You see the schools will only teach on the stuff that the law allows them to teach on, however there's other things that need to also be covered as well and that's where the parents should be coming in in the first place. After all, if they did that, then we wouldn't be having the problems with teen pregnancy that we've been having for the last couple of years at the current time right now. Too bad that no one will ever listen to me at all.

Heavy heart

Well I've always been one that when it comes to love, I kinda suck since I don't happen to have that much experience, well once again it happened that way again (and the sad thing was that I never got to meet up with her).

 

Yesterday I had asked an old high school friend out through chat on-line, and everything was going great, but then this morning I got a message from her that said that she doesn't happen to like me as either a friend or a boyfriend, so I get screwed and assed out of any possibility of even having a chance when it comes to love at all. Which continues to hold out the problem that I keep constantly having when it comes to the girls that I still have not been able to over come no matter how hard I try at all.

 

Honestly I don't know what in the world the problem happens to be, other then when it comes to my hyperness thanks to my A.D.H.D. (which I don't happen to have much choice over in the matter), I mean that was something that I was born with and can't change no matter how hard I try at all. Plus what doesn't help is that I can't get medical help for it since no hospital or doctor will ever help me out on that (namely since I don't happen to have the medical insurance to cover anything like that at all, and believe me not even the government would ever help me on this, and this is NOT a nod off for the Republicans to take a pot shot, this has been going on for far longer then this current administration has been in office). So either way I'm completely screwed out on everything.

 

So in the mean time I'm left completely screwed over, and mind you I don't blame the girl at all, half the time I don't want to live with myself either, but hey living with myself is far better then death (which yes I have contemplated and tried back when I was in school thanks to all of the teasing that I had been getting, botched that up too). So in the end I've no clue what in the world to do at all.

 

Plus to let you know, the dating sites don't help at all, believe me I've been trying. Both of the following sites claim to be completely free, but they're not, those sites are: Plenty of Fish (http://www.plentyoffish.com/) and OKCupid (http://www.okcupid.com/) both of those sites claim to be free but in the end still require you to upgrade at a cost to be able to get more features. Sorry but when one happens to be both homeless and jobless at the same time, tends to put a crimp in the plans. Essentially no matter the dating site, they're all the same and that's the sad thing, besides even on OKCupid I kept messaging the girls, but they never either replied back or messaged me at all, so when I can figure it out, I'm going to be killing my profile on both of them. I was honest and truthful on both of them, but I can't handle it when I go out of my way to be that way and get nothing back. Basically I'm the "good friend" that can never get the girl. Hell I had the girl once before, but because I couldn't have kids (thanks to a birth defect) she cheated on me constantly and had several kids by several other guys, so I got left by the way side on that one. I am honestly starting to wonder if the vision that I had was just a BIG cosmic joke on me that will never come true at all.

 

Look for anyone reading this, if you'd like to help me out on this, please do so, just realize that I'm not going to be going towards any dating sites at all period, because I know that they will require me to upgrade and to pay for it to get all of the features. So you all can try to hel me out here, but also consdiering that I'm stuck here in Fresno and won't be able to leave any time soon (the whole homeless and jobless thing there), I'm like Star Trek Deep Space Nine at the start of the series, everyone has to come to me. Yeah don't like it much myself, but hey I don't have much a choice in the matter at all.

High Speed Screw Up!

Honestly I believe that this entire state is now trying to screw over the Central Valley, and they're doing this by saying that they want to start the high speed rail either in San Francisco or Los Angles, effectively wiping out the last strands of any chance that we had for pumping in money to the Central Valley at all.

 

The one thing that was seriously needed for Fresno and the entire Central Valley was a major construction job that would allow money to start flowing in and start to lift up different businesses here in our neck of the woods. However that's now been cut off and we've just been completely screwed over by the people in charge of the project. They have no idea how much this has hurt us at all.

 

So no we don't happen to have tall building in abundance around here, or happen to have a large section that's wealthy (which is now that I think about it mostly where they're aiming at), but of course the one thing that these people don't realize is that when it comes to the money that is being spent, the wealthy really could care less since they happen to have their own cars, and they don't like to spend any kind of money at all. So if the rail commission thinks that everyone else in those areas is going to be spending any kind of money at all, they're sadly mistaken. However, then again they're not really thinking about those that will actually be able to use the high speed rail at all, after all why would they care when they still use their own cars. It's like here in Fresno, the city council raises the prices of the FAX bus, but they never use it because they all drive their own cars, so they're really in truth helping themselves when it comes to all of the money here in Fresno (after all a 5% pay cut literally isn't anything at all).

 

Personally I still say that we should go for the recall and put people in there that have actually dealt with everything that we're currently going for, however the Rail Commission isn't something that we can do that to at all, so when it comes to that, everyone here in the Central Valley and Fresno is completely screwed over on that.

The Hypocritical Fresno

I never thought that I would ever come to realize this, but hey my eyes are open to this bloody city that I'm currently living in right now. This is the most hypocritical cities that I've ever known (and I've known a few too).

 

You see the one thing that they don't want anyone to realize is that this city is a do as we say don't call us to account for our own actions. Personally I don't happen to like that in the least, but there's actually nothing that we can do when it comes to that at all. I mean this past week and weekend, I've noticed that you've got people out there that are not only dressing a certain way, but telling others that they need to dress differently from themselves. Even in church groups they're doing this, so you tell me, is it right that they keep telling us one thing, and yet won't do it themselves. Personally I don't happen to go for that at all, but there's nothing that I can say or do since they just claim that it's a sin not to do as they say in the first place.

 

Honestly I'm tired of seeing what I'm seeing, but till someone takes them to task (sort of like what I'm doing now), then nothing is going to happen at all.

Different things going on

Well besides trying to figure out what's going on in my love life at the current time, that and I'm currently working on trying to get my book worked on for the first time now in ages. It's not easy when there's only one thing that tends to be on ones mind constantly, and now that that might be changing for me for good, I figured that it was about time that I started working on my book. Plus I actually need it to be fully finished before I can submit the first three chapters, and the reasons are listed in the submission policy here:

 

"1.) The first three chapters of your book, prepared in standard manuscript format on white paper. (If your chapters are really short or really long, or you don't use chapter breaks, you may send the first 40-60 pages of your book, provided you stay under 10,000 words.) The submitted text must be made up of consecutive pages and should end at the end of a paragraph, not in mid-sentence. Standard manuscript format means margins of at least 1 inch all the way around; indented paragraphs; double-spaced text; and Courier or Times Roman in 10 or 12 pitch. Please use one side of the page only and do not justify the text. Do not bind the manuscript in any way. Make sure the header of the ms. includes either your name or the title of the book and the page number (on every page).

 

2.) A synopsis of the entire book. The synopsis should include all important plot elements, especially the end of the story, as well as aspects of character development for your main characters. The synopsis should run between three and ten pages in standard manuscript format.

 

3.) A dated cover letter that includes your name and contact information and the title of the submitted work. Briefly tell us what genre or subgenre the submission falls into and mention any qualifications you have that pertain to the work. Please list any previous publications in paying markets.

 

4.) A self-addressed, stamped, business-size envelope for our reply letter. Unfortunately, it's no longer possible for us to return submissions due to a change in postal service policy that requires packages weighing more than a pound be mailed at a post office. Since we use a company mailroom rather than a post office, when we try to return submissions, they are sent back to us by the postal service or disappear in transit. We recycle your proposals. (That's not a euphemism for being tossed in a wastebasket--we recycle all white paper.) If you live outside the United States, please go to http://www.usps.com/onlinepostage to see internet postage options. If you do not include an SASE, you will not receive a reply at all."

 

So yeah I've got a lot of work that I've got to get done, plus with the loss of my laptop, I lost an entire chapter that I had done, and had just started working on Chapter 9. So yeah, but with the one thing that I had needed before, I do believe that I've gotten that back now, but the one thing that I still need to get rid of is my ex and with her nothing is offical yet (though as I write this  am currently checking on that to make sure), at least not that I'm aware of. I just tried  talking to her to let her know that everything has to be offical and that she just can't think that the entire thing will go away. Personally I'm wanting out of something that's been hurting me for way too long, but it's her that's being a pain the ass right now. Of course searching for the records is starting to become a royal pain in the ass on it's own.

 

Yeah, ya know, I'll just do a follow up to this posting since this is starting to drive me nuts here.

The Fall out from Sunday

Well considering everything that's happened and taken place, it's going to be understandable that everything is going to be taking a back seat to what's going on over seas when it comes to Bin Laden's death. I mean I heard on the news this morning listening to Alice 96.7 (http://www.myalice967.com) that they did take photos when it comes to the death of Bin Laden, but I also understand they're not wanting to put them out there as well.

 

You see if those photos were made public at all, it would do the one thing that really we don't need, and that's for the terrorist to have a martyr, which is what we would get if the photos were made public at all. So yeah the last thing we need is not only that, but also we don't need someone else getting any ideas to take his place at all, see right now they're disorganized and that's good for us, since it means that they can't get things together at all. And once the photos are made public it means that everything has at long last calmed down so that way they can be able to know that nothing is going to come bad from those photos at all.

 

Personally I happen to love this, since it means that we can at long last start towards a peaceful world that we've been trying to get to for ages, but people keep thinking that only by raining terror can anyone ever really be at peace. Sorry to say, but that's not the way to do it. And Egypt is the perfect example that the terrorist ways are not the answer at all, though they did try to tell them that it was the right answer and they were proven wrong. I'm happy they were proven wrong on the Egyptian note for that one.

BIN LADEN DEAD!!!!!

Well everything is coming in that has made this completely official, and that is that the one that wanted to rule the world not only under a terrorist gun, but believed that the United States was pure evil, is dead.

 

Personally I believe that they should've killed him ages ago, but the country that he was living in wouldn't give him up for the longest time, and there was nothing that we could say or do that would ever change that. However now that has all changed and he's pushing up dead daises (sorry he doesn't deserve live ones), and the world's going to be way better off because of it in the first place.

 

From what I heard, last night Lamoore Navel Air Station was doing an all night celebration, and didn't end till 4 this morning, and for GMA it's been the only thing that they've been putting on the air at all. However considering everything, it was like the '89 quake that rocked the Bay Area, all of the news stations up there were talking about nothing but that for a good solid two weeks. So I don't figured anything different here when it comes to this either.

 

However what this now means is that things over there are going to be changing not only for the better, but for all time. Can't wait to see it all.