Dreams fall so short :(

We've all got dreams, it's not something that we can get past, well if you don't have emotions or happen to be a living robot, then you've got dreams. I've got a couple of them, the major one is to become published with my first book of a series that I seem to be constantly working on like crazy, plus with a lot of set backs one tends to wonder why I don't just quit, the answer because I really wouldn't know what in the world do to with my self at all. The second dream is to become a film maker and to own my own studio, however that takes money to get done and that doesn't seem likely any more since I can't seem to get a bloody job in the Central Valley area.

 

I was going through my Linkedin (http://www.linkedin.com/) contacts, and I noticed that one of my contacts which happens to be a friend of mine is already partly living my dream, his name is Terry Song and he works for Pixar Animation studio. Now I don't have that kind of talent to do what he does, however I can write, and I've got a good imagination to actually direct something that would be great, but I can never get the chance to actually do that. I've tried back when I was going to film class back at Fresno City College, the problem was that no one would ever help me out when it came to getting the filming done. So in the end I was the only one out of the entire class that could never get anything filmed. Plus what didn't help was that I had no one outside of school here in Fresno to be able to help me out at all, so I'm left on my own and unable to actually film anything for the class at all, so in the end the most that I can ever get is a "D" and that's it, never anything higher then that. I've even got a story that I would love to film, something that I wrote back on Fan Fiction.net and the problem is, thanks to past endeavours from school, I fear actually trying to ask anyone since the last time that I actually did ask, the person contemplated and then eventually said no. No I would need the commitment right off from the start, but I know that it won't happen like that.

 

So my dreams end up going by the way side, and all of my high school friends get to pass me up with all of their dreams, and all I can ever do is just watch from the shadows and nothing further. Yeah my life stinks :(