You've heard of the phrase there's someone out there for everyone, well I'm finding that very hard to believe for myself, after all the girl that would go out with me would have to deal with my constantly being hyper all the time (all thanks to the A.D.H.D. that I happen to have). Well it seems that no matter what I happen to do, I mean even if I get a girl interested, I'm still too hyper and she ends up saying no in the end. Now there's a paragraph that I'm going to put up here, and then there's two people that I'm going to talk about from that paragraph (if you can call one very long sentence a paragraph), as well as what's up with the one that I actually married.
This is it: "You want to know what I am people, I'm a science fiction/fantasy and anime geek, whose not only trying to find that special someone, but who has two dream girls (one of whom is married, while the other's got a restraining order on me), and... no chance in hell, with an ex that still continues to think like a child, and whose had so little sex in my life I'm starting to believe I'm a virgin again, whose got a nine inch pencil for a dick with only one nut that happens to be completely in fertile (unless I get surgery to get it fixed), with no chance in hell of not only ever finding that special someone (don't really know who), but also getting rid of my ex for good, all the while being so hyper from A.D.H.D. that no girl wants anything to do with me because I'm "too fast", which means that any girl that does fall for me would already have to be prepared for my hyperness and be a counter balance for it, which I'm starting to doubt will happen any time soon. So that about says it about me in a bit of a nut shell, though a lot of that actually had to be experienced, and not just written about either."
Now the one that happens to be married is one Amy Hughes (who happens to go by Amy Powell now), and that one that happens to have the restraining order on me, her name is Corinne Wieben, and my ex is Miramonte Turley. Now when I was back in school as a kid, I had been extremely shy (and in a lot of ways, I'm still am shy too), well Amy was one that I had wanted to go out with for the longest time, and there was just no chance that I could ever get the chance. She had even left for a few years only to come back, and really get me entirely messed up (though that was my fault and not hers), and that was only because of the fact that I had fallen for another girl who happened to be Corinne Wieben. Of course the one thing that I didn't know was that when it came to Corinne, she had been getting lied to by another young lady by the name of Danielle Ackermen, however the only thing was that I didn't know that Danielle had been telling her lies at all and I had been falling right into everything that she had been telling Corinne right from the start. So instead of ever trying to ask Corinne out the right way, I had just been an idiot and did everything screwed up and wrong. However when Amy had come back, I missed all of the chances that I had to try to ask her out at all (and there were a few of them too). So when we left from school, I never got any of those chances back at all and that's what hurt the most out of everything.
So for the next several years (even after I had married my ex), I tried looking not only for everyone in my class, but at the same time, I had also been looking for both Amy and Corinne so that I could get everything figured out and let them know not only how I felt, but to also see what can be worked out (problem was that never worked out right in the end). However it was around the beginning of last year that I had discovered the one thing that I never thought that I would ever discover, and that was the fact that Amy had gotten married, and suffice it to say that yes it did hurt a bit (quite a bit).
Well considering that my own marriage had tanked big time, because my ex Miramonte had cheated on me like crazy and was constantly having kids by other guys, I figured that I would try to find someone else that I could be with. Well the problem with that as we've covered is the fact that I happen to be a bit too hyper in that so no girl ever actually wants me. Hell I even tried the on-line dating sites, but those are no good because for one I can never pay them to get everything that I need, and I'm sorry to say but with the hyperness and my always needing to be with someone, it doesn't make for a good combination.
So suffice it to say in the end that as much as I would love to get to talk to either Amy or Corinne, I can't. Amy has completely blocked me on Facebook (where I know that she happens to be be), and I can't talk to Corinne till after the restraining order, and honestly it won't even be that soon that I do, I may not talk to her till next year or the year after that. I really just don't know. Oh well such is my life.
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