Something I realized yesterday

Now I'm not prone to these things, at least not the way that I used to, but this one hit me hard. I had been walking to meet a friend of mine, when I started to picture something in my head, something that I realized would end up happening later on next year. What was happening was something that I'm not going to like having to wait for, but I also know that I have no other choice in the matter either, since I've learned that when it comes to something that's going to be happening, and you want to change it for what you think is the better, more often then not, it turns out that you were wrong in the first place.

 

What I had seen, was me sitting in the Student Lounge at Fresno City College next year working on my laptop when a girl comes up to me and asked what I'm working on, however the only problem that I'm going to partly have is that I'll be listening to the music on my laptop at the time while working on my book (though I really don't know if I'll be published at that time or not). Once she does at last get my attention, that's when things start to get cooking between us, at least slowly. What I realized that I was seeing was my future girlfriend, the one that I will end up getting by stopping looking in the first place. I can pine all I want, but it's not time for me to be with someone else yet, and as much as I want to try to make it other wise, I've got no choice in the matter here at all.

 

Time and again, I've seen these things happen, and when I've tried to change them, it never works out because the person that's being effected doesn't care till it happens, and they wonder how I knew in the first place. Well this one is happening to me, and as much as I would like it to be other wise, I know that there will be no other choice. I won't be meeting my new love of my life till after I start going back to Fresno City College in the fall next year. Just wish that it was other wise.

 

However when I do meet her, I know that if by that point I have gotten published, she will still be put through the test that I'm going to have her do. I already know that she'll stick with it either way, but I've got to go through the motions to make sure that she does anyway.