I know that I crammed on this before, but after what I had been seeing these days, I have to cover it again and this time with what I've been seeing. Now I've seen all sorts of couples, but the one thing that amazed me is that I've never seen a couple that actually looked like they were geeky and hyper like I happen to be. I saw one couple today that looked like they'd stepped right out of a porn video, the only thing that was out of place was the baby kid on her hip, beyond that everything looked like it was right out of a porn video. Aside from that I'm honestly wondering if there is anyone out there for me, and yes I know that I've stated that before, but it's still true, of course it doesn't help that I can't get out of this damned city to begin with. However I figure that once I do get out of this damned city then maybe my chances might end up going up (yeah right), after all on-line dating sites aren't helping me at all, after all I can't exactly put down on there that I happen to be homeless which happens to be an instant turn off. However it's not like I'm trying to stay in the position that I'm in right now, I just have no other choice in the matter, but I am working on it. I do job hunt during the week when I can, but beyond that it's not exactly like I can just go and find the right one for me.
Look I know that I happen to be doing a bitch fest here, but it's not exactly like I'm seeing any exit for myself at all, after all I see a couple out there holding hands, and I just end up extremely jealous of the fact that it's not me. A friend of mine has a quest right now, but one that I'm partly opposed to, his quest right now is to see me laid before or by my 33rd birthday, which honestly since I want to be in a relationship before hand, I really don't see that ever happening. Though when I happen to explain it to him, the light begins to slightly dawn in his head, the problem is is that he keeps forgetting what I'm telling him when it comes to that. So I'm still stuck in my hard place right now. What doesn't help me is that most (OK all) of my friends that I happen to have on Facebook live no where near where I happen to live, so they can't see what I'm currently going through right now which really doesn't help anything, but I would love for one of them to come to me for once. After all, I do have a sort of wish as to how I would like the girl that I'm going to be with to be like, and to be honest it's a combination (sort of) of both the personalities of Amy Hughes and Corinne Wieben. However I know and doubt that's ever going to happen, so in the end I will be left alone :(, and I know that my friends quest will in the end fail. Yeah, my life sucks :(
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